I changed?

Long time never update our blog d neh lao po....
Our blog were always happy and sweet sweet....
But after quite a long time we never update this, i am going to post something which is abit sad...

As title mentioned....
I Changed??
Honestly, myself also doubting bout this question....
I am trying to ask myself, Am i Leonard Lim??? "OF COURSE YOU ARE"
I asked myself again, Am i the real Leonard Lim??? same answer coming out again"OF COURSE YOU ARE"
I asked myself continuously with the same question, i found out that i am still Leonard Lim....
BUT..............................................I am the Leonard Lim with a bad tempered nowadays......
Although bad tempered are always with me since i was small, but it became worst and worst....
Even my lao po also beh tahan me already...
OH MY GOD LEONARD LIM!!!!!!
I know its really hard to live together with some one who are very hot tempered.....
I know hows the feeling....in this moment i feel very very regret and also disappointed to myself....
I really don't know how to control myself...
I just can't stand with any pressure....
I will get angry easily when there are pressure on me...
I really hope i can change...
I really trying so hard to change...
BUT....WHY CANT THIS PROBLEM GOING AWAY FROM ME?!
I remembered last week my i heard from my dad's friend about being angry kills alot of cells in our brain....
After i heard this, i was trying to think and imagining...
I believe that what he said are true as we know everyone will angry and when we are angry...we can't make a good decision....we cant determine which is good which is bad....WHY? because there are thousands or even millions of cells are killing by us...After he told me this, i realize that we must cut down the chance for us to be angry...But i found out that is really very hard to stop ourself from being angry...When things happened we will just automatically gone angry which is uncontrollable...
At the end, i really felt so so so so sorry to my baby with what i had done which make you unhappy and sad....Im trying to control myself nowadays...Im really trying so hard!!!!
I love you baby!!!I really do!!!I am willing to do whatever changes that suits you because i really can't live without you my dear!!!!I LOVE YOU!!!!!

Lao Gong